Archive for February, 2007

Wednesday, February 28th, 2007

Today I joined an Educational Tour of a Montessori Class. It was fun to be with all these kids and it definitely has made me as well as the other grown-ups tired. From Wetlands, to Crocolandia, to Go-Nuts, and the Air Base… beating the heat of the sun… the children run back and forth with their guardians (mom, dad, lola, yaya) following as closely as they could.

One thing I noticed though when we reached Go Nuts was a mother scolding her daughter upfront. Well…. yes maybe the child was careless. But did she deserve to be scolded in front of a lot of people? The reason why she was being scolded was she let someone hold her toy and she forgot who it was. When we were on our way to the Air Base, the child was told to walk down the aisle of the bus to see if the person she handed her toy to was there. And hey… guess what? The bus was running then…

I wonder what the reaction of the mother would be if her child slipped while looking. Did she not ever realize that with over 300 people (adults and children combined), she was lucky that nothing happened to her child. Anyhow… as we were entering the gate of the Air Base, the mother went down our bus and transferred to the other bus looking for the toy and left the child embarassed and all alone…practically in tears. Well… the mother found the toy in the next bus with the lady who was keeping it for the child. The toy? It was a small plastic crocodile that her mother bought in Crocolandia for I think P100!!!!

Yes, P100 is still hard earned money. But is it worth it to put your child through the shame and embarassment…scolding her in front of people? Couldn’t you put off reminding/reprimanding/scolding your child for at least a few more hours till your home or till you are both alone? I do not have a child of my own but I would rather loose P100 than have my 5 year old child remember that I embarassed her in front of people.

Happy Valentine’s Day

Wednesday, February 14th, 2007

Today, I greeted a lot of people "Happy Valentine’s Day"… as a joke? No not really. I was with a group of people. People who I may or I may not spend part of my life with… GOD WILLING>>>>

Why? I was in a place some 20 kms from where I live and had to go there 2 times today! Yessss…so that’s about 80kms all in all in a day… whew… that sure made me seem to practice driving.

Maybe today is the day where my future will lie. I don’t really know. INSHALLAH … I guess some are thinking it’s because of someone special? Never mind my someone special… He will always be there for me no matter what. I just know it. More like I may be with special people….

It has been months (i think) since I actually made a blog. Mainly because I have been so confused with everything going on around me for a million and one reasons. But life goes on as it always will and it has not been bad at all.

To you my special friend… thank you for being you, for coming into my life.

One of these days…

Monday, February 5th, 2007

One of these days…

When I can face the day without the thought of you clamoring through the    numb vacuum of my being.

When your face no longer haunts me in the darkness of the room nor in the stillness of the empty nights.

One of these days…

            When I can cease to live in reverse from morn till eve.

            When I can listen without pain to the music that reminds

                    me of you.

            When the echoes of your songs nor the roar of your laughter

                   cannot reach my slumber.

One of these days…

When I can watch how darkness devours the earth without seeking your face in the dark.

When I can no longer hear your voice in the noise of the disco crowd.

When my heart never throbs wildly at the familiar sight of you

One of these days…

          When nothing can remind me of you.

          When I can endure to be alone on the shore; hear the music

                   of the sea as the waves dash and kiss the shore without

                   feeling your cold hand at the touch of the cool breeze.

         Without seeing your shadow among the palm trees swaying to

                 the whistle of the wind.

One of these days…

            When the memories of you need not be a gnawing mental

                  torture.

            When I can muster the will to cast you from my memory.

            When I can dream of the future without the vision of you.

            When I can tell myself that you were but a passing wind

Then and only then…

            Can I truly love and toss away love in the air

BUT…

            Not yet

            Not now

            When everything is too foggy

            My eyes are still misty

            My heart is still giddy with the thought of you

            Too obstinate to change or to feign

            Still clinging to the dreams that will never come true