Paranoid!!!!
Ever met someone who is paranoid? I did!!!! And for more than 5 months I lived with it. All the lies, the deceit, the blaming me (even if I was not there when something happenned, a story always came up andit turned out to be my fault!!!)…. And what did I do? Nothing… people who don’t know me so well will say "I don’t beleive you did not do anything." Those who know me will say "Ana man gyud ka! Just write all your hurts in one sitting and after that, keep it somewhere where you won’t see it ever and move on." As it unfolded day by day during those 5 months, I just kept on writing and writing… till the day I left. I am glad that it dod not reach the point when I would confront her. I may keep my mouth shut for quite some time but I am definitely no pushover.
It has been months and I am already "out of sight" and till now… I still seem to be the apple of that persons eye!!!! GGGGGRRRRRRRRRR….. vaaakkkeeeettttttttt!!!!
So I decided to look it up word for word… other than what I already know about it. What is written below is what I found out. It’s a hopeless case somehow. If it was because of some childhood experiences that person had or not, I don’t really care. It’s just that SHE is pushing the people she loves away from her. The sad thing is she knows it and yet she does it relentlessly not only to her family but also to her friends. Oh well… no wonder.
I used to be mad, angry and hurt. Now, I pity her as she tortures herself. All I can do is to fervently pray for her, HURT as I am, that she be enlightened.
Sorry guys!!!! I just had to take this out of my system… 
What is Paranoid Personality Disorder?
Quick Summary:
Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant. They usually shift blame to other people and tend to carry long grudges.
Symptoms of Paranoid Personality Disorder:
- Unwillingness to forgive perceived insults
- Excessive sensitivity to setbacks
- Distrustfulness and excessive self-reliance
- Projection of blame onto others
- Consumed by anticipation of betrayal
- Combative and tenacious adherence to personal rights
- Relentlessly suspicious
Additional Information:
Paranoid personality disorder is difficult to treat, as paranoids are often extremely suspicious of medical professionals. A combination of medication and talk therapy can be effective at combating the more debilitating symptoms of this disorder.
