My Thoughts this September 21,2006
Sitting on the doorstep, sipping my third cup of coffee for the day… cigarette on the other hand, my mind wanders as I look up and stare at a plane weaving its way through the clouds. My thoughts?????
- I feel so NUMB. I feel so NUMB. I feel so NUMB. I feel so NUMB. I feel so NUMB. I feel so NUMB. I feel so NUMB.
- I am glad to finally be going home if I think of that particular "odd/bizarre/hurting or what have you" situation I was in.
- I am HURTING inside with all the lies I overheard and what was relayed to me.
- I wonder when my plans will be in accordance with HIS will.
- I feel so shattered deep inside me.
- I am going to miss the LOVE OF MY LIFE so so so so so so so so much.
There are no tears as I think about these and many more. I know there will be no tears when I leave two days from now. But a lot of questions on what tomorrow has in store for me. I know I still ask a lot of questions but I have surrendered everything to HIM. I may never come back here… I don’t really know but whatever it is……… INSHALLAH
