Memories & Feelings Unleashed….

Today is Sunday, June 25,2006. Nothing special about this day… It has been 3 weeks since I heard the "bad news". I am much better now, not much tears..though as I said…acceptance has not really sunk into me. Hearing mass almost daily would always leave me teary eyed in the first week or so.

This morning I woke up saying I would not cry during the mass; I would go through it with my chin up and say "I am ready to fight and bounce back…" The priest started his sermon with a story…

"Jesus was on a ship with his disciples, braving a storm. Jesus was fast asleep and all the disciples were wide awake…afraid of what might happen to them. So they woke Jesus up and asked him to do something about it. And Jesus just answered…you say you trust me? Then put your faith and trust in me…"

Just like flicking the switch of a light, tears rolled down my face with the realization of it all. Oftentimes we say that we have faith and that we trust HIM. The big question is, do we put our trust in him? These are two different things… saying something … and actually doing it. Don’t you think so? I do not know where I am heading at this point, but I definitely have to let go of all these and lift it up to HIM.

I honestly am not back on my feet just yet and I am wondering whom I am trying to convince but I just know… "When a storm comes into our lives, it will definitely toss us around but always remember there is CALM after the storm.

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